Update
For anyone who might still be tuned in these days :)
Where to start, where to start? Hummmmmmmmmm, let's see, let's start with Terry. He is still alive. Doing well, as ostioarthritis in his back and water on his knees. Such fun for him! NOT! He may have to go off his blood thinners for a couple of weeks so they can drain his knees but last time he went off the thinners he had a series of mini strokes so I personally am a bit concerned but he and the doctors will all talk it over and consider all the risks. My attitude is that if he does go off the blood thinners for the surgery then he might as well get his teeth taken care of at the same time, he has a couple that have really been bothering him. We'll see what happens.
Melissa next, she's doing much better. The girl who was the source of problems at school came back and tried picking up right where she left off. Melissa handled it pretty well, came to me, asking me to call the Dean of Students to remind the other girls of the boundries that had been set. That made her back off for a day or two but then the "go ask Melissa this question" stuff started again and Melissa basically told everyone that came up to her and did ask that she appreciated the concern, accepted the apologies but she still could not be friends with this girl, it was just too much for her to handle. The other girl lost it again and was readmitted to the hospital. This happening again so soon tells me that either
a. The doctors and such didn't know about the school situation and therefore didn't address it.
b. The doctors and such didnt' understand the depth of this other girl's obsession with Melissa and therefore didn't address it.
c. Always the correct answer
d. The mother got involved and the school situation and Melissa were blamed for everything and therefore it wasn't address properly.
Anyway you look at it, the girl wasn't given the proper treatment for whatever reasons and is right back where she started. I talked to Melissa at great length about this to make sure she wasn't feeling guilty about what happened. Her answer was basically this. "Mom, I don't feel bad about it anymore, I know I have no control over her and I know it's not my fault she can't let go. AND the other kids told me they are getting tired of her going on and on and crying all the time too. They want her to get better and to also move on. In fact some of them are even coming to my table when I sit by myself and eating lunch with me. So it's okay this time." I have been watching her closely for signs that she's trying to con me but they weren't there. She really does feel better about it this time. She is no longer taking the meds they prescribed in the hospital for two reasons. The first was they made her so sleepy. I am talking falling asleep in class sleepy and no energy, no ambition. We cut back the dosage and that helped but she was still in a bit of a daze. So when it ran out I waited until we saw the doctor again (two days later) and in that two days I started seeing my Melissa again. Not the moody, angry, I'm going to kill the world if they look at me wrong Melissa but my Melissa, the one who likes to read, write, play her flute, take showers, fix her hair and care about her appearance Melissa. It's really nice to see her again. We talked about this in the doctor's office and part of the reason she had been letting herself go was because of this other girl also. This other girl is very overweight, doesn't wear makeup, barely runs a comb through her hair and doesn't really care that much about her appearance and when Melissa would look nice this other girl would complain that she was too pretty and no one would notice her. It was constant with this girl. But now that she's back with other girls her whole world has changed. And one of the other girls, one we have known since kindergarten is thrilled that Melissa is back hanging out with them. She has lots of other friends but she told me that she really missed Melissa being a part of her world. Melissa always had the best ideas for fun and doing things. So we decided at this time that Melissa would try to see the world without meds and if thing started changing again we would go back and reassess the situation. She would continue in therapy and I would watch her moods swings and make sure they are caused from either hormones (PMS, the likes) or if something is going on at the house, etc. With everything I'm going through right now I know Melissa is still going to need another outlet.
Today she is in New York City. I am so jealous of her right now. The 8th grade takes their class trip to NYC every year and this year was no exception. They left on the bus at 4:15 AM this morning and will be back around the same time tomorrow morning. They will be going to Ellis Island, Statue of Liberty, Central Park Zoo and and Yankees Game. She spent the night at a friend's house last night because Terry and Ellie are in Washington DC (will explain in a bit) and I would have had to get her up, get James up and get her to the school by 4 AM, not gonna happen, not me, LOL :) Can't wait to hear about her trip.
Ellie is in Washington with her dad and Aunt (his sister) today. They left yesterday morning to see Terry's Aunt who recently got out of the hospital and stayed with his brother who lives right outside of DC. His aunt lives in Maryland. I thought it would be a nice break for her since Melissa was going to NYC and she was having some issues with other things. I'm not going to go into details, she told me she would rather I didn't discuss her bad things, just the good things. So here are the good things. They won their first soccer game last weekend and Ellie was a big help in the effort. She didn't score any goals but she was fantastic in getting the ball downfield so her teammates could score. I am always proud of her but this time she was really putting some effort in and I was just thrilled for her. So afterwards we celebrated by going to the grocery store and getting the fixin's for some great sundaes and such. Had quite the fun that night. Made her feel really special. I also sent her along this trip to give her time with her Dad, she says she never gets to spend time with him and to connect with her Aunt. She told me that I'm her on support system person and I know her aunt could be another if she would just give her a chance. So I'm hoping they will find some common ground on this trip and Ellie will feel she has someplace to go when she needs a break from the house and family here.
James is going to 4 years old tomorrow. Hard to believe. I look at my baby and I just am amazed by his energy, his passion for life, his ability to laugh at just about anything and his obession with mooning everyone. I swear, the kids is nuts, but then again, if he wasn't he wouldn't fit in around here now would he? He's a good kid, he starts Headstart in September. He's very excited about going to school, I'm bummed, but I'll survive. He's a good little boy and he's great about sharing and such so I hope he'll do alright. I'm sure he will. :) He's growing up so fast, he gets himself dressed in the morning before he leaves his room. Sometimes it's all on backwards but he's trying. This morning he made his first peanut butter sandwich by himself. My baby boy is growing up, all to fast for my taste but not much I can do to stop it either ;(
Now me. What to say. I had my first therapy session this week. It went alright. I'm not going to get into details because whenever I do I seem to upset or anger someone in my family. We talked about a lot of different things, touching on several subjects and will start to work through them as each session goes on. It going to take some time and at some point we will talk about other medical treatments that might be available to me but for right now we stick with the one I'm on since it does help control my temper, which to me is pretty important, especially now. I do seem to be having mini panic attacks or something, my chest will get tight for a second and then it passes just as quickly as soon as I take a nice deep breath. My sleeping habits also suck right now and getting to sleep is the hardest part. Once I'm asleep it's not so bad but getting to sleep can take an hour or more sometimes. I literally have to exhaust myself to a point where I can barely keep my eyes open but then by the time I let the dogs out one last time, turn off all the lights, lock the doors and such I'm wide awake again. But off to bed I go and then the routine starts. I may read for a bit to get tired again then I have to be laying a certain way, with my hands in a certain position, my dogs in the bed with me and then I have to tell myself over and over again to "sleep, sleep, sleep" because if I don't then my mind will race with all kinds of thoughts. Everything from finances, to the house to the cars to Tom Cruise to the kids to Britney Spears to Terry's health to.............you get the picture.
My back was doing better because I wasn't pushing it. I'm taking the meds the doc gave me and doing the little excerises and I can walk further now but still can't do the dishes, sweep a floor or haul laundry baskets up and down or around the house without my back, legs and arms going into some serious aching. Especially the back muscles, they just feel like they are in a vice and it's being squeezed harder and harder. I have another appointment with the doctor in a couple of weeks, I may go back sooner if this doesn't get any better. I can't stand for very long, can't sit for very long. how the heck am I supposed to get a job when I can't stand, can't sit, can't lift, can't do repetative stuff. It just sucks rocks at times. We'll see what happens in a couple of weeks when I do the Concert in the Park taking pictures and see if I'm going to be able to work around that as well.
Well, that is the update so far. The animals are all well and may be growing, we shall see. :)
Deannda
Where to start, where to start? Hummmmmmmmmm, let's see, let's start with Terry. He is still alive. Doing well, as ostioarthritis
Melissa next, she's doing much better. The girl who was the source of problems at school came back and tried picking up right where she left off. Melissa handled it pretty well, came to me, asking me to call the Dean of Students to remind the other girls of the boundries that had been set. That made her back off for a day or two but then the "go ask Melissa this question" stuff started again and Melissa basically told everyone that came up to her and did ask that she appreciated the concern, accepted the apologies but she still could not be friends with this girl, it was just too much for her to handle. The other girl lost it again and was readmitted to the hospital. This happening again so soon tells me that either
a. The doctors and such didn't know about the school situation and therefore didn't address it.
b. The doctors and such didnt' understand the depth of this other girl's obsession with Melissa and therefore didn't address it.
c. Always the correct answer
d. The mother got involved and the school situation and Melissa were blamed for everything and therefore it wasn't address properly.
Anyway you look at it, the girl wasn't given the proper treatment for whatever reasons and is right back where she started. I talked to Melissa at great length about this to make sure she wasn't feeling guilty about what happened. Her answer was basically this. "Mom, I don't feel bad about it anymore, I know I have no control over her and I know it's not my fault she can't let go. AND the other kids told me they are getting tired of her going on and on and crying all the time too. They want her to get better and to also move on. In fact some of them are even coming to my table when I sit by myself and eating lunch with me. So it's okay this time." I have been watching her closely for signs that she's trying to con me but they weren't there. She really does feel better about it this time. She is no longer taking the meds they prescribed in the hospital for two reasons. The first was they made her so sleepy. I am talking falling asleep in class sleepy and no energy, no ambition. We cut back the dosage and that helped but she was still in a bit of a daze. So when it ran out I waited until we saw the doctor again (two days later) and in that two days I started seeing my Melissa again. Not the moody, angry, I'm going to kill the world if they look at me wrong Melissa but my Melissa, the one who likes to read, write, play her flute, take showers, fix her hair and care about her appearance Melissa. It's really nice to see her again. We talked about this in the doctor's office and part of the reason she had been letting herself go was because of this other girl also. This other girl is very overweight, doesn't wear makeup, barely runs a comb through her hair and doesn't really care that much about her appearance and when Melissa would look nice this other girl would complain that she was too pretty and no one would notice her. It was constant with this girl. But now that she's back with other girls her whole world has changed. And one of the other girls, one we have known since kindergarten is thrilled that Melissa is back hanging out with them. She has lots of other friends but she told me that she really missed Melissa being a part of her world. Melissa always had the best ideas for fun and doing things. So we decided at this time that Melissa would try to see the world without meds and if thing started changing again we would go back and reassess the situation. She would continue in therapy and I would watch her moods swings and make sure they are caused from either hormones (PMS, the likes) or if something is going on at the house, etc. With everything I'm going through right now I know Melissa is still going to need another outlet.
Today she is in New York City. I am so jealous of her right now. The 8th grade takes their class trip to NYC every year and this year was no exception. They left on the bus at 4:15 AM this morning and will be back around the same time tomorrow morning. They will be going to Ellis Island, Statue of Liberty, Central Park Zoo and and Yankees Game. She spent the night at a friend's house last night because Terry and Ellie are in Washington DC (will explain in a bit) and I would have had to get her up, get James up and get her to the school by 4 AM, not gonna happen, not me, LOL :) Can't wait to hear about her trip.
Ellie is in Washington with her dad and Aunt (his sister) today. They left yesterday morning to see Terry's Aunt who recently got out of the hospital and stayed with his brother who lives right outside of DC. His aunt lives in Maryland. I thought it would be a nice break for her since Melissa was going to NYC and she was having some issues with other things. I'm not going to go into details, she told me she would rather I didn't discuss her bad things, just the good things. So here are the good things. They won their first soccer game last weekend and Ellie was a big help in the effort. She didn't score any goals but she was fantastic in getting the ball downfield so her teammates could score. I am always proud of her but this time she was really putting some effort in and I was just thrilled for her. So afterwards we celebrated by going to the grocery store and getting the fixin's for some great sundaes and such. Had quite the fun that night. Made her feel really special. I also sent her along this trip to give her time with her Dad, she says she never gets to spend time with him and to connect with her Aunt. She told me that I'm her on support system person and I know her aunt could be another if she would just give her a chance. So I'm hoping they will find some common ground on this trip and Ellie will feel she has someplace to go when she needs a break from the house and family here.
James is going to 4 years old tomorrow. Hard to believe. I look at my baby and I just am amazed by his energy, his passion for life, his ability to laugh at just about anything and his obession with mooning everyone. I swear, the kids is nuts, but then again, if he wasn't he wouldn't fit in around here now would he? He's a good kid, he starts Headstart in September. He's very excited about going to school, I'm bummed, but I'll survive. He's a good little boy and he's great about sharing and such so I hope he'll do alright. I'm sure he will. :) He's growing up so fast, he gets himself dressed in the morning before he leaves his room. Sometimes it's all on backwards but he's trying. This morning he made his first peanut butter sandwich by himself. My baby boy is growing up, all to fast for my taste but not much I can do to stop it either ;(
Now me. What to say. I had my first therapy session this week. It went alright. I'm not going to get into details because whenever I do I seem to upset or anger someone in my family. We talked about a lot of different things, touching on several subjects and will start to work through them as each session goes on. It going to take some time and at some point we will talk about other medical treatments that might be available to me but for right now we stick with the one I'm on since it does help control my temper, which to me is pretty important, especially now. I do seem to be having mini panic attacks or something, my chest will get tight for a second and then it passes just as quickly as soon as I take a nice deep breath. My sleeping habits also suck right now and getting to sleep is the hardest part. Once I'm asleep it's not so bad but getting to sleep can take an hour or more sometimes. I literally have to exhaust myself to a point where I can barely keep my eyes open but then by the time I let the dogs out one last time, turn off all the lights, lock the doors and such I'm wide awake again. But off to bed I go and then the routine starts. I may read for a bit to get tired again then I have to be laying a certain way, with my hands in a certain position, my dogs in the bed with me and then I have to tell myself over and over again to "sleep, sleep, sleep" because if I don't then my mind will race with all kinds of thoughts. Everything from finances, to the house to the cars to Tom Cruise to the kids to Britney Spears to Terry's health to.............you get the picture.
My back was doing better because I wasn't pushing it. I'm taking the meds the doc gave me and doing the little excerises and I can walk further now but still can't do the dishes, sweep a floor or haul laundry baskets up and down or around the house without my back, legs and arms going into some serious aching. Especially the back muscles, they just feel like they are in a vice and it's being squeezed harder and harder. I have another appointment with the doctor in a couple of weeks, I may go back sooner if this doesn't get any better. I can't stand for very long, can't sit for very long. how the heck am I supposed to get a job when I can't stand, can't sit, can't lift, can't do repetative stuff. It just sucks rocks at times. We'll see what happens in a couple of weeks when I do the Concert in the Park taking pictures and see if I'm going to be able to work around that as well.
Well, that is the update so far. The animals are all well and may be growing, we shall see. :)
Deannda
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