Well, what a week!
And it ended better than it started, that's for sure!
*WHEW*
I got myself up and out of the house as much as possible because I know part of the problem is when I lock myself away from the rest of the world. Even James knew something was up and kept coming to get me and grabbing my hand and telling me, "You NEED to play with me!" He was right, that was exactly what I needed, some fun time, play time and just relax time. The girls were home all week on spring break so we got out almost every day. Went to the parks and such, anything to get out of the house. James was in heaven with all the playground time, LOL!
I am feeling better, still have my moments, mostly moments of self doubt which are natural with depression but I'm actively working through them, getting up, processing pictures, working on the EBay store, doing research, whatever I can to keep myself busy.
Tomorrow I get to call the mortgage company and beg forgiveness, we are a bit behind, 2 month but this too shall work out. They have offered a couple of solutions, one of them is sell the damn place but Terry would never go for it and where else am I going to find someplace that will let me take all these dogs? The cats I can find homes for but Vinnie and Haley? I've tried with no success and I couldn't take them back to shelters to be in kennels all day, it would break my heart as well as theirs. So we stay, will look at other options available. Also going to get to the Shopper tomorrow and get those ads going, I got a free one through the Heights Merchant's association and I have a credit to use up and with Mother's Day coming up.............
Terry is doing well, working hard, got a lot done on his days off this week. Part of the porch was literally rotting out under our feet and he got after it and fixed it! I was so impressed and it worked out really well because I stayed away, LOL! Terry and I do not work well together on home projects, put us in a store and we are close to unbeatable but put us on a remodeling project together and start looking up divorce lawyer numbers. So I just let him do his thing and when he needs help he calls Melissa, she's big enough now she can do more than I can most of the time in terms of helping. Dang girl is 5'11" tall! And lots of muscle in there!
She's worried about going back to school tomorrow because of the whole thing that happened right before spring break but I told her to just keep her mouth shut, don't comment to anyone, take a book to lunch and if anyone asks her about any of it to say, "I made a mistake, I already apologized to (girl's name here) and it's over, thanks for asking." and if they kept after her to get a teacher. I told her this girl is the type that will keep going and if you just keep your mouth shut and give her the rope she will hang herself in no time flat. I wish I could protect her more but I know this is one of the times I have done everything I can, it's time she dealt with it from here and for me to just be at home when she gets here in case she needs me. It's hard, really hard. But I feel confident that she will be able to handle it.
Ellie is back into soccer. During one of our visits to a playground I noticed she was running like mad and not limping. Hummmmmmmmmmmmmm, interesting! So the next day I asked her if she was sore and hurting. She told me just a little bit but not much, why? I told her that since she seemed to be feeling better that I didn't see any reason she couldn't go to soccer practice and try it out and see how she feels. You would have thought I gave the kid a lifetime pass to a fruit stand (she loves fruits), she was thrilled. So I called her coach and told her we would be there. Turns out she has a very good friend on the team, knows 3 other girls besides that and is having a great time. She puts some icy/hot on her leg when she's done and it seems to be holding up very well. So she is a happy camper once more! ;)
James is finally, almost, completely potty trained! YEAH! Very few accidents these days, just one or two when he gets so involved in what he's doing he forgets until it's too late and doesn't make it to the bathroom. Melissa was the same way. But he is really trying. And he's pretty much dressing himself these days, puts his pants on backwards almost every time but rarely puts his underwear on backwards (if he remembers it at all) because Terry has taught him that cool little trick about pulling out your penis without dropping your underwear. He thinks it's the neatest trick in the world! But he makes me laugh and I have needed that so much.
Speaking of laughing, Melissa, Ellie and I have been playing some games on the computer the last couple of nights and just having a great time! I was laughing so hard the other night I was in tears and the girls really had a lot of fun too. So the past few days have been a healing and bonding time for all of us.
Now to just get the photography or EBay or something going! :)
Love to all!
Deannda and the Zoo
*WHEW*
I got myself up and out of the house as much as possible because I know part of the problem is when I lock myself away from the rest of the world. Even James knew something was up and kept coming to get me and grabbing my hand and telling me, "You NEED to play with me!" He was right, that was exactly what I needed, some fun time, play time and just relax time. The girls were home all week on spring break so we got out almost every day. Went to the parks and such, anything to get out of the house. James was in heaven with all the playground time, LOL!
I am feeling better, still have my moments, mostly moments of self doubt which are natural with depression but I'm actively working through them, getting up, processing pictures, working on the EBay store, doing research, whatever I can to keep myself busy.
Tomorrow I get to call the mortgage company and beg forgiveness, we are a bit behind, 2 month but this too shall work out. They have offered a couple of solutions, one of them is sell the damn place but Terry would never go for it and where else am I going to find someplace that will let me take all these dogs? The cats I can find homes for but Vinnie and Haley? I've tried with no success and I couldn't take them back to shelters to be in kennels all day, it would break my heart as well as theirs. So we stay, will look at other options available. Also going to get to the Shopper tomorrow and get those ads going, I got a free one through the Heights Merchant's association and I have a credit to use up and with Mother's Day coming up.............
Terry is doing well, working hard, got a lot done on his days off this week. Part of the porch was literally rotting out under our feet and he got after it and fixed it! I was so impressed and it worked out really well because I stayed away, LOL! Terry and I do not work well together on home projects, put us in a store and we are close to unbeatable but put us on a remodeling project together and start looking up divorce lawyer numbers. So I just let him do his thing and when he needs help he calls Melissa, she's big enough now she can do more than I can most of the time in terms of helping. Dang girl is 5'11" tall! And lots of muscle in there!
She's worried about going back to school tomorrow because of the whole thing that happened right before spring break but I told her to just keep her mouth shut, don't comment to anyone, take a book to lunch and if anyone asks her about any of it to say, "I made a mistake, I already apologized to (girl's name here) and it's over, thanks for asking." and if they kept after her to get a teacher. I told her this girl is the type that will keep going and if you just keep your mouth shut and give her the rope she will hang herself in no time flat. I wish I could protect her more but I know this is one of the times I have done everything I can, it's time she dealt with it from here and for me to just be at home when she gets here in case she needs me. It's hard, really hard. But I feel confident that she will be able to handle it.
Ellie is back into soccer. During one of our visits to a playground I noticed she was running like mad and not limping. Hummmmmmmmmmmmmm, interesting! So the next day I asked her if she was sore and hurting. She told me just a little bit but not much, why? I told her that since she seemed to be feeling better that I didn't see any reason she couldn't go to soccer practice and try it out and see how she feels. You would have thought I gave the kid a lifetime pass to a fruit stand (she loves fruits), she was thrilled. So I called her coach and told her we would be there. Turns out she has a very good friend on the team, knows 3 other girls besides that and is having a great time. She puts some icy/hot on her leg when she's done and it seems to be holding up very well. So she is a happy camper once more! ;)
James is finally, almost, completely potty trained! YEAH! Very few accidents these days, just one or two when he gets so involved in what he's doing he forgets until it's too late and doesn't make it to the bathroom. Melissa was the same way. But he is really trying. And he's pretty much dressing himself these days, puts his pants on backwards almost every time but rarely puts his underwear on backwards (if he remembers it at all) because Terry has taught him that cool little trick about pulling out your penis without dropping your underwear. He thinks it's the neatest trick in the world! But he makes me laugh and I have needed that so much.
Speaking of laughing, Melissa, Ellie and I have been playing some games on the computer the last couple of nights and just having a great time! I was laughing so hard the other night I was in tears and the girls really had a lot of fun too. So the past few days have been a healing and bonding time for all of us.
Now to just get the photography or EBay or something going! :)
Love to all!
Deannda and the Zoo
posted by Musings of a Mad Woman at 11:09 PM
1 Comments:
Hi,
Hope everything went well with the doctor. Let me know if you need anything. I'm more than willing to call anytime.
BTW: Everything still OK with the computer?
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